To shine bright, like the name of this blog, to Kindle - to light up, illumination, or make bright - is something that is in my heart to do. If our lives can be like a wildfire to those around us then I feel we have succeeded! Yesterday, day one of the blog (which let me remind you is like a dream finally on paper), I was trying all day to "shine", yet at the end of the day falling to sleep all I felt was.... well I don't know if there is a name for it, but I fell horrible about myself. I felt like a bad wife, a bad sister, you name it, I had nothing but awful thoughts for myself.
As I started thinking about it I was reminded that I just had a big day, I just put action to my dream, a dream God put in my heart, a dream that will hopefully burn like a wildfire through the net - I want my friends to enjoy this blog, but I also what my friends to be "effected" by the blog, and their friends, and strangers, and new Christians, and NONE Christians... this blog is for EVERYONE. So of course I would get those feelings... its like the let down, the enemy putting discouragement in my heart so I would do nothing of the sorts of burning for Jesus! I fell asleep and this morning I feel better - ready to light my fire!!!
Today I made it to Genesis 3 in the bible which was my 4 pages of reading that included the intro to Genesis. I have to admit that I haven't really read the intros to the books in the bible. I am by far not a history buff, but that is one thing that I want to get out of this study, I would like to know more about the history of the Bible and the people in it!
So today it was the creation. But one thing stuck out to me in Genesis 2:2-3 it said on the 7th day he RESTED. We all know that, we have read that a million times, heard it in church etc. Today it meant something to me... how may of YOU Rest???? As I read that I thought of myself and I thought of my friends and family and it seems like more and more the REST part is moving out of our culture. I think it was implanted in my head that resting was lazy. In my head I know I am soooo wrong, but I deal with a constant contradiction going on in my mind.
I am a stay at home mom, but I never feel like I have "rested" - there is always something to be done, and I always make the choice to DO it.
Life for us is about choices. We can choose to love God, we choose to love each other, and we can choose our actions. I am going to try and make an effort to choose to rest without the guilt feeling that I am lazy. One day a week, I will rest with my family, and enjoy the "creation" of the week ending!
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