Anticipation

What a week of anticipation... this week is like any other week, but there seems to be so many things we are waiting for that we could possibly get answers on this week.
Gunnar had testing this Saturday with a local police department, he did a great job, they are scoring the test now and will let him know by Wednesday if he gets to interview on the 1st.  He will also find out with his job offer will be from the company he interviewed with last week by Tuesday... Then he gets to interview with another department on Friday...  Which ever one is the one that God has chosen for us we are willing, it is just the anticipation of knowing God's will!

Along side of that I have a doctors appointment on Wednesday.  I have struggled with chronic urinary urgency for almost three years now.  This was a random illness that has been driving me crazy.  I have gone to every doctor I can think of, OB GYN, Naturopath, emotional counselor, general practitioner, specialist... you name it.  And no one can figure out what is causing my symptoms... so so frustrating.  I know that I have one or two ovarian cyst, I have had ultra sounds monitoring them, so my thought is that they are causing my symptoms.  I have wanted to get these cysts removed for a while, but I have not had insurance.  I got notice come the first of the year that my insurance WILL cover it now... so it has taken me this long to schedule appointments.  Now I just get to see if the Dr. will say this is a needed surgery.  Either way - this appointment means a lot to me and my life right now, there is only a few other things I want right now other than to feel healthy again! 

On another note, my Mother and Father in law have been living with us for the past month or two while they were in between houses, and they are moving this week.  Such a bitter sweet.  I love seeing my daughter play and have so much fun with her family, and this was such a short time it is hard to believe it is already over... we did not play enough cards for this time to be over already.

There are a few other events happening this week as well that are important to us, but I'll spare you the details!

Ok, here is just me thinking out loud.  I wonder if Jesus new how he was going to die.  We know He had a conversation with His Father, when God told him he would be sacrificed, and we know He wasn't happy about it.  But then He had to continue His course... in anticipation He waited for His death, the death that would save the whole world.  Ok, know I know my anticipation has nothing on His but maybe I can learn to wait by the way He waited... joyful and loving... full of life and hope.

Cheers - have a great week!  I am sure we will!!

Turning over a new leaf

I have to say I have not been blogging for a few specific reasons.  It is not because I do not enjoy it, but instead because I have been overwhelmed with my own personal expectation of why my blog should be like.  I had an idea of how I wanted my blog to be, then as I started following all these other amazing blogs done by amazing women on couponing, cooking, frugal living, and more I was .. well to say the least overwhelmed.  Why should I do it, if everyone else is already doing it so much better than I can??

Well.. I am not going to do it!  But I am going to blog.  I have made a few changes in my blog - from being "The Daily Kindle" it is now "My Daily Kindle" - I made this change because I need this blog for me, this is my output to see the good and wonderful things that God is doing in my life and my family's life!  I used to be a big journaler.. but now.. I guess I type more... I talk to my friends.. but to process what God is doing I need to write it down.

This blog has from the beginning inspired me to be better, be more of the woman I want to be, more of the child of God I want to be. 

To recap what I am saying - I am not going to promise anything, but I will write down my journey as I live it, and hash out my thoughts and fears about our life here... in My Daily Kindle!  Wanna join me??

Today - what is going on Today???  I just feel as if I should take the idea of wanting to feel in as if I was in "idle" out of my mind.  Not that being in idle sounds great anyways, but when you have been running full speed for three years idling does sound appealing!  For those who don't know me personally, and do not know what I am talking about here is a little timeline for you ::
2007 - move to Bend
2008 - new job - new house - school - unexpected horse injury expenses - and near the end of the year decision to bring a child in our life.
2009 - NEW CHILD - a lot of unexpected drama with our child (adoption) - and a lot of unexpected expenses - end of 2009 - Adoption finalization!
2010 - New house - unemployment - expenses....New job
2011 - New house (yes this does seem like an unfortunate pattern!) - lay off - unemployment - New Job ... great new job.... still expenses...
2012 - Great new job is shaky.... 

So my husbands recent new job that we have been truly blessed with is not so much up in the air, but is changing... not idling!  The company he works with is selling so he has a few choices, to move with the company that he currently works with or to change to the new company that bought the business.  There are also a few other variables in the picture, he has testing for a county job, and an interview...

Sometimes... actually a lot of the times I feel that there are so many things that are blessings in disguise.  I love change...  ask any of my friends... I bet there hasn't been a time in the last three months that they have come to my house and seen my furniture in the same place!  I keep moving things around in my current present life because I love the new.  I do right now... feel that God does understand my need for change, or am I anticipating the change in my life so I am changing my physical life??

There are so many things going on, and I feel like 4 years ago, I would have spent a few days alone with the Lord and had it "figured out"... how can you do that with a three year old?  I did read my bible today... it was the Storybook bible... but I did read it! :)   

So again - how many times have I changed my mind about this blog!! 

Cheers - Here is to change!!!

My next project

Here is my next project ::
Granola Bars

I will get my ingredients this weekend... wanna join me! 

Today's To-do's

This morning started off pretty slow with me organizing my daughters clothes - so so thankful for friends and family who give us hand me downs!!  Now it's nap time, I have a pumpkin cooking in the oven, and will make baked pumpkin oatmeal out of it! yummmm.
I also have dinner heating up in one crock pot and I am about to make some applesauce in another!  I love feeling productive in the kitchen!! :)

Have a great day.

Cheap Meals

Have you ever actually figured out how much your meals are per serving?  I haven't either ... yet.  I realize that some of my ingredients are expensive and the cost of some of my meals are higher than they need to be.  This is just another step to helping my grocery budget stay down. 
I would like to start a "series" of cheap meals that we can all share, meals that cost under $5.00 for your family of 4 or less.  Of course if you get your ingredients at a discount and with coupons this helps your meal cost. 

This week I am on a tight budget (as if that ever changes!  But due to my husband loosing his job and back on the job hunt I am going to really try hard).
My meals this week include  ::

Garlic roasted chicken drumsticks with potatoes and green beans.  Drumsticks I got at .99 p/lb from whole foods, potatoes from my garden, and green beans from my garden.  It calls for garlic which I also got from my garden.  This meal is REALLY cheap for me...12 drumsticks were under $3.00 and the rest free...

Roast - I going to try a new recipe that was in the whole foods september/october flyer.  My husband loves Indian food and I never cook it, so there was a recipe for a roasted Indian roast.  I have the roast from the cow we bought last year, I have cauliflower, rice from costco, and carrots from the garden.

The next night I will left over meat from the previous two nights and make tacos.

I will then have chili which consist of canned food I have, mixed together in some yummy goodness.  I will also probably make some bread to go with it.

The last night will be meatloaf and alexia sweet potato fries - another cheap meal.

Do you have any cheap meals to add????

Good morning Sunday

Todays paper had an adnormal amount of coupons in it so make sure you get a paper!  There were a few organic/natural coupons in there.  Off the top of my head there was an Alexia Sweet potato coupon, and Eggs lands best organic egg coupon.  Lots of household product coupons. 
I am working on a meal plan and will post it later.  I am going to try to make meals from my pantry this week and just buy produce this week.  Stay tuned!  I hope you all have a great Sunday!

Be still and wait

WHAT..  today I am hoping for a little Mary and a little less Martha in me!  Ever have a sudden big change in your life that makes you feel the need to fix??   Well today I did!  When stuff like this happen to me I feel the sudden need to fix it... change it... but I can fix this... or change it.  I know that I can try all I want, but this time it just doesn't feel right. 
So today I am praying for the grace and strength to sit and be still... to wait and see what our God can do! 

So here is me telling myself and today I really need an AMEN FROM YOU!!

GOD IS BIGGER THAN ME
GOD IS BIGGER THAN THE UNEMPLOYMENT RATE
GOD IS BIGGER THAN MY FEARS
GOD IS BIGGER THAN MY ANXIETY
GOD IS BIGGER...... THAN ALL!!

Now... can I hear that AMEN!!

Morning

Good morning - this morning my daughter and I read about Adam and Eve and how they broke the rules...  trying to relay what happened to a two year old is kind of challenging.  Then, as I ask her to play for two minutes so I can type up this blog she is pushing me to come on my lap, come stand by me, mommy come play....  I can't help to get a smile on my face and think about our relationship with God.  I want to be with that with our Father.  To constantly be asking for him... come do this with me, can I sit on your lap, can we go play... I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING WITHOUT YOU!!!  I love it when my daughter teaches ME!

Have a great day I NEED to go play!!

Evening thoughts

So what I want to know is when did our thought patterns change from thinking about who we "are" to who we "aren't"... or what we have done to what we have not done???  Confused??  As I lay down at night I think about my day and unfortunately the first things that come in my mind is stuff like "I didn't switch the laundry, I responded wrongly to my husband/child, there are clothes on my floor I didn't get to, I didn't go to story time"... all of the things that I didn't do or things I did wrong.  My question is why cant I lay down at night and say stuff like "I read to my daughter today, I cooked a great dinner, I provided for my family, I spoke kind words, and I played with my kid"? 
I think that if I were to change my thought process to the things I DID to from the things I didn't do that I would DO more tomorrow because I would feel better about myself instead of feeling like I am not good enough.  Anyone else have this same problem or is it just my crazy mind???

So here is to starting a new trend. 
Today I DID ::
Read to my daughter good stories and we talked about how much the Lord has done for us.
Play in her room and let her dress up like punky brewster because it was fun.
Tickled and kissed her long enough that she laughed so hard she got the hickups.
Sat down at the table for Breakfast, lunch, and dinner with sustainable food that I know is good for our bodies.
Was a good steward with my time and money.
Relaxed.
Preserved food that will allow me to cook more yummy goodness.
Told my family I love them.

Thank you Jesus for seeing the things we DO.

Giving Him the Glory

This morning I decided to not head out of the house so quickly to story time or play group and instead sit and enjoy the morning that I am forever thankful for.  I was reading the "Story time bible" to my daughter and it was talking about God bringing Light into the Darkness.  So we did a little exercise with a dark room and a flash light. 
I love seeing the fresh new things in my daughters eyes.  When was the last time you thought about what it would be like if God didn't make Light???  It would be pretty tough to enjoy the little things in life that we so frequently take advantage of.  Like gardening, hiking, going to parks, and enjoying rays of sunlight in your kitchen window. 
Today I want to give God the glory for making the light, the sea, the mountains, the land...  God is good to us... all the time!

1 Cor 1:9
God who called you into fellowship with His son Jesus Christ our Lord is Faithful.